My Mission in LIFE
Its 8:15 am, I got up today at 4:30 am and slept last night at 3:03am I was praying that’s why!
I am not sleepy but bit tired.. Never mind, because I promised Allah to give my best this month and my slogan is nobody is going to reach him (ALLAH) as I am, inshalla
Been praying and reciting Quraan, and inshalla going to memorize the whole Quraan I made up my mind and inshalla I will have a teacher who will teach me on daily basis…
God I feel so weird, yesterday on IQRA channel I was watching Amrz Khaled program and I couldn’t stop crying from the begging till the end, the episode was so touchy, it was talking about how the prophet (PBUH) was tortured by his own relatives (abo lahab his uncle mainly) the best thing that ustath Amr Khaled drives you to imagine the scenes and he asked us to put ourselves there with them, as one of the kids of the prophet (PBUH) or imagine that your relatives is torturing your own father! God I could not stand it anymore
I made up my mind to wash away my sins and forever inshalla. I want to make tawba from everything, I even decreased the music in my life (I do not listen to music anymore anyway) Id rather listen to anasheed or poetry. I would rather read books instead of watching anything on TV, I am trying to make my life more sensible, I am trying to give my best to what I believe in.. I want to sacrifice myself and soul in worshiping Allah.
The first thing that I have to do, is to clarify my heart from bad thoughts, or thoughts might drive me to sins. I cry at night because I believe that I should be more responsible for my own body and soul, I should not waste time thinking of something Allah would not accept it for me in this time, so I just make a prayer (do3a2) then try to fill my time with theker or reading or questioning.
My life became more stable more calm more reasonable to live, I feel that I am getting mature by time, guess what I am going to be 20 this Friday, at last..
However, 20 year has passed! What did I give to the world? To my religion? To myself?
These questions drive me to think seriously and be more committed to be an active member in this society …
Inshalla I will be the one who is going to make the girls of my university pray and feel Islam again inshalla..
I am not sleepy but bit tired.. Never mind, because I promised Allah to give my best this month and my slogan is nobody is going to reach him (ALLAH) as I am, inshalla
Been praying and reciting Quraan, and inshalla going to memorize the whole Quraan I made up my mind and inshalla I will have a teacher who will teach me on daily basis…
God I feel so weird, yesterday on IQRA channel I was watching Amrz Khaled program and I couldn’t stop crying from the begging till the end, the episode was so touchy, it was talking about how the prophet (PBUH) was tortured by his own relatives (abo lahab his uncle mainly) the best thing that ustath Amr Khaled drives you to imagine the scenes and he asked us to put ourselves there with them, as one of the kids of the prophet (PBUH) or imagine that your relatives is torturing your own father! God I could not stand it anymore
I made up my mind to wash away my sins and forever inshalla. I want to make tawba from everything, I even decreased the music in my life (I do not listen to music anymore anyway) Id rather listen to anasheed or poetry. I would rather read books instead of watching anything on TV, I am trying to make my life more sensible, I am trying to give my best to what I believe in.. I want to sacrifice myself and soul in worshiping Allah.
The first thing that I have to do, is to clarify my heart from bad thoughts, or thoughts might drive me to sins. I cry at night because I believe that I should be more responsible for my own body and soul, I should not waste time thinking of something Allah would not accept it for me in this time, so I just make a prayer (do3a2) then try to fill my time with theker or reading or questioning.
My life became more stable more calm more reasonable to live, I feel that I am getting mature by time, guess what I am going to be 20 this Friday, at last..
However, 20 year has passed! What did I give to the world? To my religion? To myself?
These questions drive me to think seriously and be more committed to be an active member in this society …
Inshalla I will be the one who is going to make the girls of my university pray and feel Islam again inshalla..
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8:28 AM
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