Its MY Birthday

Bit nervous ... Bit happy .. Bit optimistic... Bit scared...

however, Its my Bday, I gotta live it.. n be strong with myself...

I have to put down my goals and aims again and again... To fulfill it soon inshalla..To enjoy the process achieving my goals..

here I list some of the writing and things I love to do..I want to do.. N other things..

something to be ME


My dreams :
1 January 2005
and now its 14th of October my birthday J I renew my dreams and goals, believing that I am going to achieve them inshalla so soon.

1. Inner peace. (spiritually satisfaction)
2. Write a very touching novel.
3. Take lot of photos and be so good at it.
4. Pray 1,000,000 rak3a
5. Memorize Quran
6. Read more about my religion
7. Go to pilgrimage
8. Be good leader to myself and others
9. Have my own art gallery
10. Build the lilies sisterhood and expand. Reach their goals.
11. Have new decent friends
12. Have 5 parties (crazy parties)
13. Go to university with good neyeh and enjoy my time studying and gaining knowledge, grades doesn’t matter but understanding and knowing matters
14. Choose a major and a minor that I am sure that I want
15. Be good and nice person to everybody and love everybody
16. Make house album yearly. 2005, 2004 and fix all the house albums.
17. Make good amount of money 10000 by myself
18. Startt small business.( badges, cookies, services)
19. Discover new talents in me
20. Playy volleyball (be good in it)
21. Playy football (be good at it)
22. Play guitar
23. Learn karate (blue belt)
24. Get in shape and fit
25. Take care of my hair
26. Dyee my hair ( red n caramel)
27. Travell and enjoy (Spain, Italy, France, Boraboara, Thailand, Japan, china, USA)
28. Bee more spontaneous, flawless
29. Have my own website that inspires others.
30. Post one of my photos in national geographic.
31. Havee amazing group of girls and have our own magazine, films, photos,)
32. Read good books
33. Attendd workshops and lectures worthy ones)
34. Get the seven habits for highly effective people in Zayed University this or next year
35. Join the student council
36. Enrichh my language (Arabic and English)
37. Learn Spanish and French
38. Have my own clothing, accessories. Brand
39. Have my own restaurant .
40. Own 5 professional cameras.
41. Document my life in photos: friends, family, people I meet life.
42. Be a counselor, help others, and inspire teens
43. Keep in touch with everybody I know
44. Never miss any opportunity to be the one I want to be
45. Organize my life and time
46. Think wisely and use everything I got
47. Showw my love to my dad, mum and everyone I love
48. Thankss everyone who had an influence on my life
49. Talkk less, act more
50. Producee and sell and give 100 shopping bags


10 years ago:
I used to sleepover every weekend at my aunts house

5 years ago:
I wore hijab for the first time

3 Years ago:
I had one of the major things in my life and the time and when I first knew more about Shiite and loved it

1 year ago:
I was accepted to the university, I was sleepy that day however Happy n excited

Tomorrow:
umm is there is tomorrow..I am not sure

One thing I crave to do every second:
Thanks Allah for the Grace ALL the time

Three snacks I enjoy:
1. Ice-Cream popsiclesle
2.Coffeeee da most
3. Cheesese

Five bands/artists that I know the lyrics to most of their songs:
1. Ahmad Bu Khater
2. Alhosayan
3. Sami Yususf
4. Zainbika ( Im not sure of the spelling hehe)
5. All Anasheed that are cool >_<

Three things I'd do with $100,000,000:
1. Travel around the world, meet with ppl all the ppl that matters to me or doesnt
2. buy all the books in the world
3. spend it on poor ppl around the world (I m gonna be with them 2)

Three locations I'd like to run away to:
1. Spain
2. Cuba n Brazil
3. Makka

Three bad habits I have:
Ooop, is it necessary to list them out??!!!
1. biting my nails when I feel bad or sad
2. squeezing my hands and fingers when I am nrevous, I make the person front of me nervous too
3. I do actions that I regret doing'em later on

Five things I like doing:
1. Read
2. Swim n swim n swim
3. Watch Movies
4. TALK
5. cry

Three things I will never wear:
1. Three Quarter sleeves with Hijab ( I dunno how do they do it anyways)
2. high heels in university or horse riding class (like some geeks I know)
3. full make up for no special occasion

Three TV shows I like:
1. Lost
2. Desperate house wives
3. One tree hillThree

movies I like:
1. Dead Poet Society
2. The aviator
3. The Terminal
(actually all movies are good but I prefer movies with good story that I can learn from it something good)

Five people I'd like to meet:
Paulo Coelho, Hamza Yusuf ( I met him once but still), Bill Clenton (soon inshalla), The Dalai Lama, Amr Khaled.

Three biggest joys at the moment:
1. Nice warm shower + good book
2. Chit chat with fwends, espcially midnight talks they are so joyful
3. do any extra ordinary thing, im being bit crazy lately.. forgive moi

Three favorite toys:
1. Barbie Doll
2. swings
3. PSP

some of my weird wishes that I want to come TRUE inshalla:
1. lay on the street and watch the stars.. but not get crushed ..
2. spend a whole night at the beach watching the stars and at the morning swim endlessly in the water
3. have a tatto
4. stay inplane for 12 hours or more conintuously
5. travel for a whole year around the world and learn
6. go to all theme parks in the world
7. dye my hair blonde
8. be part of something BIG
9. be with a queen, King, Shaikh/a, on a dinner or meeting, or somehting.. lol I believe its gonna be fun hehhe..dont ask why!
10. have breakfast in my bed without making either mumor anyone angry

some stuff I keep on mind..n keep on telling myself !!!

I will be more productive & efficient after a break or rest, make better decisions and have a better perspective on what should be done and how it should be done

My Mission in LIFE

Its 8:15 am, I got up today at 4:30 am and slept last night at 3:03am I was praying that’s why!
I am not sleepy but bit tired.. Never mind, because I promised Allah to give my best this month and my slogan is nobody is going to reach him (ALLAH) as I am, inshalla

Been praying and reciting Quraan, and inshalla going to memorize the whole Quraan I made up my mind and inshalla I will have a teacher who will teach me on daily basis…


God I feel so weird, yesterday on IQRA channel I was watching Amrz Khaled program and I couldn’t stop crying from the begging till the end, the episode was so touchy, it was talking about how the prophet (PBUH) was tortured by his own relatives (abo lahab his uncle mainly) the best thing that ustath Amr Khaled drives you to imagine the scenes and he asked us to put ourselves there with them, as one of the kids of the prophet (PBUH) or imagine that your relatives is torturing your own father! God I could not stand it anymore
I made up my mind to wash away my sins and forever inshalla. I want to make tawba from everything, I even decreased the music in my life (I do not listen to music anymore anyway) Id rather listen to anasheed or poetry. I would rather read books instead of watching anything on TV, I am trying to make my life more sensible, I am trying to give my best to what I believe in.. I want to sacrifice myself and soul in worshiping Allah.

The first thing that I have to do, is to clarify my heart from bad thoughts, or thoughts might drive me to sins. I cry at night because I believe that I should be more responsible for my own body and soul, I should not waste time thinking of something Allah would not accept it for me in this time, so I just make a prayer (do3a2) then try to fill my time with theker or reading or questioning.

My life became more stable more calm more reasonable to live, I feel that I am getting mature by time, guess what I am going to be 20 this Friday, at last..

However, 20 year has passed! What did I give to the world? To my religion? To myself?


These questions drive me to think seriously and be more committed to be an active member in this society …
Inshalla I will be the one who is going to make the girls of my university pray and feel Islam again inshalla..

Ramadan The Holy month

It has been 8 days since holy month of Ramadan has started, I am so astnoished by the spirit in the air, the holiness..its marvelous feelings…

I just came back from Fajer prayer (morning prayer around 5:30 am) it’s the time when God divide wealth and grace upon his creatures, so I believe that who really wants to be guided by God and be blessed to be awake at that time and pray. Thnx be to my Lord ALLAH, I feel closer to Allah I feel that I can reach him like no ever, my trust in him has increased, my love to him became more than anything in this world.


Along with my studies about religion and practices, till now I found out that Islam is the religion of instinct, we were born Muslims, I too believe that Judaism has some facts and we share beliefs that I feel good reading and studying about them more than Christianity, I don’t know why, but that what I feel.


University is not a good place to go while you are fasting@_@ seriously it’s a disaster, especially that the weather is not helping too and the girls are like 24/7 angry and HUNGRY lol…

Poor me I got responsibilities more than anyone I know, I got a club that I must take care of, I got endless home works, projects and readings. God I don’t know how am I going to pass global studies exam, man it sux big time, I have no clue what is going on or what is going to come on the midterm. However, I am trying to be optimistic and believe in myself that I will be able to sit and read and study J inshalla.

Hmmm…. These days I got such a bad stomach, I hardly can eat, then I easily puke.. I don’t know what is the matter with me. I hate food, it always make me feel sick..

Today I don’t have any class at university, but I have to go to complete some Environmental studies project with one of my friends, hmmm its almost 6:34 am I was so delighted to read some mails today, there are still good people in the world yet..

One last concern, MY MOTHER, ohhhh I love her but she’s been a bit tough on me lately, in Ramadan people usually spent after breaking their fast time in more fun things or going out. However, I’ve been willing to attend some lectures and guess what? She doesn’t like it, she think its better to stay home instead of roaming outside at night!! God I am just attending Islamic lectures, she would allow me to go shopping but not lectures, anyway I pray to god that when sheikh Hamza Yusuf come to UAE I can go to attend the lectures, inshalla..pray for me too J


Hmmmm..got some bad ewoooooh pains in my tummy…I guess I better leave now….

Ps: to all who wish to be with the prophet Mohamed (P.B.U.H) watch Amr Khaled at 1:00 am at night, IQRA channel or at 4:45 PM its amazing mashalla….

RAMADAN Mubarak

SALAM Aliykom...

GOD ITS ALREADY RAMADAN, thnx be to Allah .. we made it elhamdolelah...
well well ..
I dont have much time to post noW!!! how sad i know...
however I would love to invite you to attened the lectures that will be held in Dubai

hmmm..Ok IM running out of time..so i'll be back later..soon inshalla

Sick n Gloomy U_U

Hi there....

today was really rewarding we had the best booth in the Clubs fair..It was endless fun thnx to Allah...

However, I was collapsing in the English class I almost burst in tears...I was so tiered...God nobody knows how tired I was...Been working continuously for a whole week from 8 am till 8 pm...Anyways its all good...

The worst thing happened when I reached home... I was almost dead... N guess what! I was like..." I gotta reward myself for hard working and determination so I watched a new episode of desperate housewives season 2..It was sweet n nice... But after that I collapsed totally n start shivering in my bed...I thought that I was dying or something like that....I GOT HIGH FEVER ...

I feel so bad n gloomy..I don't wanna go to university tomorrow..I wish if I can skip only one day!!!

POOR me shivering n feeling so bad..I wish if you "-_-" were here... I would just be fine....

God I miss old days when we used to be always there for each other...Always together doing everything...

I remember..You even used to force yourself to read the same books I read..LOL n u get nothing out of it ..hheeheh

missing u Walla,,