Shattered..memories..karma..people

In the middle of nowhere
I try to hold myself
But i fail
I burst in tears
A shiver runs through my frozen body
My cheeks are warm
My gaze is empty
I dunno what happened to me
I feel so different
Today I was surfing the net, and a poem was written to me as a betrayal shocked me
Its true I betrayed her, but god that was too long I was naive I was shattered glass full of sad memories.
It feels so bad to see people you don’t know talking about you and discussing your memory.
I stopped there, saved the poem, burst in tears. Missing you and missing your hug when I feel bad or mad.hhh
I look away from my screen searching for peaceful scene. My mobile ringzzz in my ears, i slowly stick it to my ear and say hello, the other side a person I don’t trust anymore, I guess its karma. However, she asked me to something but I refused then she told me that someone was asking about me. Again and again people will never stop discussing about me, am I that important? Yes, I believe. Then i cracked a laugh god knows from where i had the energy to laugh when I am bleeding from inside. I threw my mob away and return to my laptop.
Today I went to my friends place to send a fax, while i was printing the letter my vision went blurry I couldn’t see for awhile, i was winking till i saw a light cutting through my eyelids it hurt me so badly. I stop doing anything took my purse and marched back home. My eyes were filed with tears.....

God my mum just called asking me if i am alright...at last she starts feeling me...
She asked me if iwould like to go to the beach with her *grin* sure ...
N now im going ...

S.H I promise to write u as soon as i reach back home