Lilies

They are trained killers

and will take over the world

with their sweet smell of death

and their sly sapping films of pollen.

By all accounts,

we should wipe every single one of them

off the face of the earth,

if it weren't for one thing......

they're so damn pretty!

I <3>

I am surrounded by them all the time

they are the air I breath

the Dream I dream

they are so Magical

creation

First day over there

I couldn’t get much sleep last night... I was so dizzy, tiered, couldn’t breath well (asthmatic), but I had to force myself to sleep peacefully, which dint happen. However, I got up so early before the alarm, actually I didn’t feel that I was sleeping the whole night. anyway got cold shower to start fresh, with some strawberry scented everything, trying to make the worse a bit good, then went to get dressed up, reciting Quran and praying before the big battle to start, God its not my first year yet i was chickening out like hell as if I am going to KG, huh..

Guess what??
I opened my door ready to have a blast over there, and to get shocked looking at my mum with a horrified looks in her eyes, (I am an adult now, still she gets the creeps when I go anywhere even to schools but at the end she always have to admit that i have to go) anyway so she started lecturing me, you know whose ur daddy, and your a good Muslim, and blah blah, and you cant lock your room when you go, i'll keep the key with me
(God I don’t even trust you on my books and diaries)
However I gave her what she asked for, and left with my new Prada sunglasses (the only thing besides unddies that i buy high branded since i cants trust my eyes with any other weirdo brands) my new sheila dint suit the weather which was SOOOOO hot, we were getting boiled goodness. got into the car was reading my morning prayers, couldn’t switch on my iPod, and went all the way to the "over there". Entered the place went to check my schedule and to see one of my teachers, it was humid + hot + full of wannabes + show off geeks + full of people + some stinky smell (cant they buy deodorant from any heck pharmacy or anywhere) + lost in chaos of many many many ideas in one time to what to do next, i headed to the restaurant to check out if my friends arrived in anywhere since no one was answering m calls. anyway I entered and saw two of my lovely cutie friends, went hugging and missin words...we couldn’t see each other much in the summer (traveling) we were happy to see each other again, I was happy to know someone in all this horrible disastrous place, and then I supposedly had an Islamic class, went to check the room and here I come, I entered the room, the class was already started, got off my everything and sat down trying to observe his Egyptian accent..
he was asking you should ask LAYYYHH?? God what does that means?? and then he said: I am going to be your father or something like that, when you do something wrong I am going to pinch your ears??!!! What??? Are you serious??? Defiantly not... tried to focus more, then he was blabbing something about kalaks which I don’t know what is it too.. horrible teacher I swear.

Immediately when he was done blabbing, I grabbed my belongings and jumped out of the class looking for any hell face I know.. and there are my friends (some more friends) I miss them so much...again hugging n kissing, making fun of each other, they were shocked that I wasn’t wearing my sketchers i told them that the high heels are just for the first day nothing more..hheheheee..

we all were there blabbing, gossiping, laughing till I remembered that I had a class, went running, and there was no one in the class I was so shocked!! where did they go?? went for a tour heheh checked everywhere I dunno the sir nor anyone in the class, then i had to head to my advisor that was sick of me i spent lot of time in his office fixing my schedule, and having admission to attend semester 6 classes and I m still semester 3 lol, and he was like hello again.. yeah whatever.

Got where I suppose to be, they changed the class and god knows what happened to the rest... WHY dint they tell me !!!!*angry with vein popping in my forehead*
The sir was like, don’t worry send him an email apologizing, if he dint believe you (as if) let him contact me... yea whatever he thinks that he is my other father
All the teachers here suppose to be your fathers. PLZ for god sake just shurrrrp.. Got my daddy and that’s all...no need for any of you weirdoes...


Then my advisor was checking my grades was shocked that I am a good student!!(duuuuh)
He was happy to check my grades and whatever thingies..

while i was heading to go, I saw one of my teachers, she start screaming and running she hugged me while screaming (I went deaf for 5 mins or more) I smiled hugged her back and then I saw my friends so they hugged her too.. Then she ran away dint want to discuss their grades hehehe...

Went to grab a cup of coohheee (coffee) iced esspresso shot yummy
Then hap my mini iPod in my ears, and start listening to Andalusian music.. amazin yummy songs and poetry..

However before I head out saw 4 of my relatives, they were happy to see me (i guess) heheh
Now I am like them lol,
Get into my car, was craving my bed and internet ... god I don’t want to see my mum today,
She was checking my magz and other stuff .. Me no like people touch my stuff I really get wacky and angry and sometimes overaggressive...

However, going to spend my siesta enjoying reading some yummy new books I got yesterday and eating some lunch. I am on Atkins that means lunches are usually extra yummy..

That’s for today
A big mammoth upload...
Some slices of my life..
As a someone not in its proper place..

midnight thingiezz..

Do you know what is the worst thing that may happen to you while you are trying to sleep in a really freezing room?

Pee.feeling lyk u wanna pee otherwise you are going to explode...god I was like going to die, I needed to get my ass off to pee, but couldn't move any of my frozen limbs under my heavy quilt. Anyway,I had to do it no matter what -got small bladder that's why- so I jumped off my bed, did my business then when I came back to my dear bed, guess what??
I nay more sleepy hehhehe I was like, its unfair everybody is making fun of me that I get up late so I plan to faste the day, and today my bro was like pray to god to helps you get up early tomorrow.
However, I couldn't stop my lil fingers typing some stupidness of my midnight stuffies...
And now I have to try my best sleeping..its already late I know..but I have to do it before 3 at least. So I am going to switch off everything and sleep.. I might put on my ipody.. I dint use it for around a month I guess.. gonna put some classic music n thweeeeeeeeeep...

Got to do some shopping..uni getting started soon and precious me dint get ANYTHING ready yet.. how amazing and how lazy I can be.. nywa...gnight for now..


**Ps: I am learning Hebrew hehhe..so TOV LAYLA for now ..means good night..

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Andalusian Poetry

First of all...Before talking about anything... I would like to whisper in your ear my dear that I am miss you terribly.. I am so in LOVE with poetry nowadays...All the types.. I read mostly for Andalusian Poets and poetesses, UAE poetesses and poets like Manee Saeed AlOtaibeh and Fatat al Arab. I am trying to enrich my vocabulary and imagination with some of orient perfumes and spices.


missin u ......

Today one of the biggest days in my summer holiday, well actually the whole woo day started yesterday.
At 11:00 pm I entered my room, supposing checking my email, but guess what happened +a miracle hehe+ nay nothing like that, but I was searching for an Arabian poems then I entered this forum, and there was a story that when I start reading it did not stop till I was done with it. concentrating in my reading till mother nature was calling so I had to stop & run*blush* however, after finishing I felt so thirsty so I had to march to the kitchen, and my bro el poet was there he was there searching for a bottle of water, so he was like “what r you doin in this time?” I was like “what’s the time anyway?” he said “2:30” I was shocked “goodness I dint feel the time passing, well I was reading this story God its marvelous” him “which story?” I was like ummm do I tell him? “well it’s a bit girlie girl story I am not sure if you are going to like it anyway, regardless that it had lot of poems that makes you burst in tears sometimes and other makes you feel passionate” he was like “lol freak as usual I never want to read anything you like, cuz it must be weird, your choice lacks taste”. I was about to burst in tears but its me dear bro that did not change from long time, he never express his feelings, take long time to tell his opinion that shocks us all, and me his special sister that loves to tease always well let it go. I said “huh I don’t care mister wavy long hair dude” he said “yaw curly walaaa” his ever all time best phrase. I let him and went back to my room but for sure he said “go to sleep staying awake is not good” God he keeps on telling me that since I was maybe one year old. I dunno why he is so concern that we all have to sleep early but its ok for him to stay late *urgggghhhhh*
Anyway, I slept around 4:00 am I was shocked when I heard the Atha’an. At that time my face was damped with tears all tissues around me. I went to wash my face and do ablution to pray. I prayed and slept I dunno around what time. I woke up on my mum’s call “dear get up I am going to city center wanna come?” me with big smile “for sure give me 15 mins” crazy huh…lol
However, on our way I was reading one of Paulo’s books “the pilgrimage” when my elder sis called. Lemme call her Olive *her nickname that mum gave her when she was young hehehe* Olive mert papay lol
Olive: good morning where are you I called home and they said you went outside.
Me: good morning and salam first, and yea I am out with mum she wants to get something from Ikea
Olive: I am going to watch Charile and the Chocolate Factory
Me :*sobs sobs* I wanna go I wanna go pweeeeeez wait for me
Olive *laughing*: its at 12:15 can you make it
Me: sure *asking mum can we just shop for 1 hour?.??
Mum: *silence*
Olive: hah temme?
Me: sure I’ll call you at 12 telling if I can go inshalla I will be able *sobs*
Olive: ok sure, then bye
Me: bye

And I was like mama we have to do it fast but trust me, there will be plenty of time trust me. God my mum laughs at me always… because she know how obsessed I can be when I want something.
Anyway at 12 we were like on the way to Sahara mall, we made it huh *griiin*
Me: mama lets go to spineyes till my sis come
And so did mum.
Then mum left home and we stayed to watch the film, it was so much fun, but I missed the original song of the Oompa Loompas :http://www1.coe.neu.edu/~thester/Sounds/oompa4.wma
OOMPA LOOMPA DOOMPADEE DOO
I'VE GOT ANOTHER PUZZLE FOR YOU
OOMPA LOOMPA DOOMPADAH DEE
IF YOU ARE WISE YOU'LL LISTEN TO ME

” lovely. Anyway they changed it to “ willy wonka willy wonka ” stilll wayyyed cute
Lol it was so much fun, I couldn’t buy any nachos or pop corn, I bought chocolate J to suit the situation lol and had on my purse some of marks and spencer yummy chocolate that I had them for my lil niece that was with us. My dear niece was hugging me all the film *she was shivering it was freezing for her lol*
After watching it we went to check the shops there and the book shop..**nothing cool nothing good** went to Big Stores *is that what it called?? No clue* and bought looovvvely furry cushions and one hot pink feather cushion **yummy right**
Then we had a humangous ice-cweeem treat me n my nephew had Trimasu I-cleam I couldn’t finish it.. I was stuffed …
We continue shopping … then we went back home … I missed my smurf *my beebee lil kitten* cuddle cuddle endlessly .. n guess what ma lil niece moomoo did??? Squeezed his ears and poke his eye.. She was about to kill him..pooor kitty.. so I took him away from moomoo *shes one year*
I went straight away to my kingdom changed ma clothes and jumped in my fluffy bed and went to the deeeepest sleep ever mashalla *smirk* however, then I woke up at 8:00 *dreamy eyes* n I was searching for daddy .. beebee where r u? “I am upstairs in my office” n I went running kissin him huggin him while he lays down on his massage chair thinig…god I missed him so much today …

After sitting with babaty I felt so relaxed… n planning to go back to thleeep after reading for sure..

Reading at the moment : Stitched Up by Stephanie *I met her at the Emotional intelligence conference that was in Dubai* great lady

Shattered..memories..karma..people

In the middle of nowhere
I try to hold myself
But i fail
I burst in tears
A shiver runs through my frozen body
My cheeks are warm
My gaze is empty
I dunno what happened to me
I feel so different
Today I was surfing the net, and a poem was written to me as a betrayal shocked me
Its true I betrayed her, but god that was too long I was naive I was shattered glass full of sad memories.
It feels so bad to see people you don’t know talking about you and discussing your memory.
I stopped there, saved the poem, burst in tears. Missing you and missing your hug when I feel bad or mad.hhh
I look away from my screen searching for peaceful scene. My mobile ringzzz in my ears, i slowly stick it to my ear and say hello, the other side a person I don’t trust anymore, I guess its karma. However, she asked me to something but I refused then she told me that someone was asking about me. Again and again people will never stop discussing about me, am I that important? Yes, I believe. Then i cracked a laugh god knows from where i had the energy to laugh when I am bleeding from inside. I threw my mob away and return to my laptop.
Today I went to my friends place to send a fax, while i was printing the letter my vision went blurry I couldn’t see for awhile, i was winking till i saw a light cutting through my eyelids it hurt me so badly. I stop doing anything took my purse and marched back home. My eyes were filed with tears.....

God my mum just called asking me if i am alright...at last she starts feeling me...
She asked me if iwould like to go to the beach with her *grin* sure ...
N now im going ...

S.H I promise to write u as soon as i reach back home