Gandhi & noble cause
Listening : **voices in ma head**
Munching: nothing
Place : my room, my only kingdom
Craving: to be able to reach my noble cause in life
PRAYER : + Dear ALLAH, may you please take care of me, my family and everyone I care about. O ALLAH, make tomorrow the best day in my whole life, and spread your blessing on my and everybody. O ALLAH, thanks for the grace you gave us and thanks for everything.
Hello there,
Today I was watching the movie about “Gandhi” he is such a great personality, his tolerant personality shakes our cores, I was crying most of the time. Firstly, because of the great personality and way of dealing with everything that he shows. Secondly, because he was living for a high purpose, he was holding on to what he believed in and lived his life fulfilling the vows he made.
God I want to be living for such a noble aim, I already have but until now I am not so into it like most of people like me. I was born to raise Muslims voice and to experience a new Islamic age and glories I so believe in. still that I did not have the willpower and good knowledge to lead or to be attached to the cause. I sometimes feel shaken for not knowing what to do or what to choose. Sometimes I feel weird, not being able to fit in the crowd and sometimes weak to do anything. However, I believe that these times either make us stronger or destroy us. I believe that who am I now is the sum of all experience good and bad that I’ve been through, believing that there are many more that will make me a good person in future –inshalla-.
Hmmm today was one of the not that much good days, lol I woke up around 6:00 am can you believe that??!!! However, I let my younger sis to sleep with me to rebound and stuff like that, so we got up, prayed and read some Quran and I recited to her the Suoras I’ve already memorized inshallah I’ll be done with Juzu’a A’ama this month inshallah I hope so. Then we went to have a breakfast together, can you imagine that I was not able like for a whole year to have a breakfast with my family because of the university huhuu..Goodness lol anyways we had some Indian bread its called ‘chapati’ yummu yummu especially if its with chocolate syrup and Hershies chocolate chip yummy. But my younger sis likes it with cheese and egg + hot chili sauce, its yummy 2 :P
The my Mum used us **angry** she let us help the maids into moving to our new dining room, we had to count the many many silverware+ dishes+ many other ewwooooh things. I really not into stuff like that, I prefer to have maximum 50 pcs of everything, yet in special occasions more than 300 visitors come so we always have to be ready anyway hmmmffff..
Then we spent the day –me+sis- sitting in my room talking, laughing, reading and many other stupid things. At 6:00 pm she went to sleep like dead body on her bed poor gal lol, and I guess what happened to me???
I felt useless, depressed remembering everything I had to do, and just questioning myself like zillion times do I really wannna do it anyway??? Or what is it? it may be that I am just under pressure because of what people expect from me, or their eyes looking at all the faults I do to make fun or to destroy whatever I say. I doubted everything every purpose make me survive till now, give new reasons to keep on going and continuing. I just reached a point where I really believe that I have MANY MANY THINGS TO LEARN. Ahhh I feel so helpless sometimes and wishing that somebody come to make me feel easier but I know that to feel good I have to have peace with my inner self and kill the devil in my heart as Gandhi said. Arggghhh I wish if I can wake up one day to find myself like everybody else. But huh NO WAY, I was born different raised up differently, always had to struggle to reach whatever I want and it’s the beauty of life. life is full of struggles, and I believe if I went to as many struggles in life I can die peacefully because I’ll be already tasted many tastes of this multipart life.
URS FAITHFULY
ALMONDAZ
Munching: nothing
Place : my room, my only kingdom
Craving: to be able to reach my noble cause in life
PRAYER : + Dear ALLAH, may you please take care of me, my family and everyone I care about. O ALLAH, make tomorrow the best day in my whole life, and spread your blessing on my and everybody. O ALLAH, thanks for the grace you gave us and thanks for everything.
Hello there,
Today I was watching the movie about “Gandhi” he is such a great personality, his tolerant personality shakes our cores, I was crying most of the time. Firstly, because of the great personality and way of dealing with everything that he shows. Secondly, because he was living for a high purpose, he was holding on to what he believed in and lived his life fulfilling the vows he made.
God I want to be living for such a noble aim, I already have but until now I am not so into it like most of people like me. I was born to raise Muslims voice and to experience a new Islamic age and glories I so believe in. still that I did not have the willpower and good knowledge to lead or to be attached to the cause. I sometimes feel shaken for not knowing what to do or what to choose. Sometimes I feel weird, not being able to fit in the crowd and sometimes weak to do anything. However, I believe that these times either make us stronger or destroy us. I believe that who am I now is the sum of all experience good and bad that I’ve been through, believing that there are many more that will make me a good person in future –inshalla-.
Hmmm today was one of the not that much good days, lol I woke up around 6:00 am can you believe that??!!! However, I let my younger sis to sleep with me to rebound and stuff like that, so we got up, prayed and read some Quran and I recited to her the Suoras I’ve already memorized inshallah I’ll be done with Juzu’a A’ama this month inshallah I hope so. Then we went to have a breakfast together, can you imagine that I was not able like for a whole year to have a breakfast with my family because of the university huhuu..Goodness lol anyways we had some Indian bread its called ‘chapati’ yummu yummu especially if its with chocolate syrup and Hershies chocolate chip yummy. But my younger sis likes it with cheese and egg + hot chili sauce, its yummy 2 :P
The my Mum used us **angry** she let us help the maids into moving to our new dining room, we had to count the many many silverware+ dishes+ many other ewwooooh things. I really not into stuff like that, I prefer to have maximum 50 pcs of everything, yet in special occasions more than 300 visitors come so we always have to be ready anyway hmmmffff..
Then we spent the day –me+sis- sitting in my room talking, laughing, reading and many other stupid things. At 6:00 pm she went to sleep like dead body on her bed poor gal lol, and I guess what happened to me???
I felt useless, depressed remembering everything I had to do, and just questioning myself like zillion times do I really wannna do it anyway??? Or what is it? it may be that I am just under pressure because of what people expect from me, or their eyes looking at all the faults I do to make fun or to destroy whatever I say. I doubted everything every purpose make me survive till now, give new reasons to keep on going and continuing. I just reached a point where I really believe that I have MANY MANY THINGS TO LEARN. Ahhh I feel so helpless sometimes and wishing that somebody come to make me feel easier but I know that to feel good I have to have peace with my inner self and kill the devil in my heart as Gandhi said. Arggghhh I wish if I can wake up one day to find myself like everybody else. But huh NO WAY, I was born different raised up differently, always had to struggle to reach whatever I want and it’s the beauty of life. life is full of struggles, and I believe if I went to as many struggles in life I can die peacefully because I’ll be already tasted many tastes of this multipart life.
URS FAITHFULY
ALMONDAZ
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